Christmas is quickly approaching, but that can mean the blues are also. I am continuing to tell my story of pain at Christmastime and how God has led me through this journey. After all that happened so many years ago, that year, I finally found myself saying, “I wanna live again.” Read my words from so many years ago and I hope that you are encouraged. Don’t give up. Help has come in the form of a baby. Jesus can take my pain and make beauty from the ashes. This is something only Jesus can do when I say, “Yes! I need you sweet Jesus”, and allow Him to take control. Only then can I really live again.
From And This Ain’t Hollywood Either, available on Amazon.
I Wanna Live Again
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body.” 2 Corinthians 4:8-11
As I walked through Walgreen’s drugstore a little zombie-like from the lack of sleep and emotional stress, I passed by a small portable TV showing the movie “It’s A Wonderful Life”. George Bailey was shouting, “I wanna live again!” “Me, too, George,” I thought, “I wanna live again, also.” There are still laughs to be had, joyful moments to experience, and times to be playful like a kitten. Right now, all of those are so foreign to me. But, there is still a lot of life to be lived. There are other people in my life such as my husband and my children, who need me to be a wife and a mom. I must keep living. I must go on. With God’s help, I will live again. I will remember that many I know are also going through great pain and need me to be an example of a survivor. And survive I will. But I will not just survive—I will live again.
Still praying for you,