Recently I led a group of ladies through a bible study I wrote, or rather God wrote, called Broken: A … More
It’s December-can you believe it? This morning I have begun Christmas decorating. I turned on the Christmas music because it’s time to celebrate, but with the first song, I found myself crying. Not crying, squalling, big, ugly cry.”Why was I crying?”, you might ask. December 12, 2003, fifteen years ago this year, my mom and dad went to a Sunday School Christmas party. While there, my dad had a massive stroke. That year was a blur with days in the ICU followed by more days in transitional care only to be sent home that Spring with a whole new normal. My mom cared for my dad in their home for the next nearly twelve years until he passed away. Understand now why for years Christmas just literally turned my stomach?
Friends, God did so many miracles during that time. The biggest one was to bring back the joy of Christmas for me. Believe me, it is still difficult, but I choose joy. Period. Joy. Going to explode joy. Unexplainable, only God can do that joyEvery Christmas I find myself at one point or another getting alone while I just lose it completely. It comes out of nowhere, but the dark sadness hits. It hit this morning as I started up the celebration.
Sharing my friend Ashleigh Anne Hughes’ story. It is incredible, and I am so honored to call her a friend.
True repentance is impossible without faith; true faith cannot exist without repentance. I know that I must trust God if I truly repent because repentance requires a sorrow for sin and a turning away from it.
From page one of week three:
As I write this, it is my 52nd birthday. Last night my uncle passed away. He was in a nursing home, so his death was not totally unexpected. God was merciful. He took him suddenly; no warning. Today I spent my birthday first, telling my cousin, his son, that his father had died.
What about those of us and the times when tragic events happen and we are not at fault? If you read Broken or many of my stories on my blog, you will totally understand that I have been there. God has called me to repentance. I have spent too long dwelling on what has happened, blaming God, being mad at God and having victim mentality. “Why me?” is an easy question to get stuck on, but God hasn’t called us to stay stuck. He has called us to look up, move forward, and to do ministry. It’s not about us; there is a lost world around us that needs to see how God can do miracles in the craziness of all situations. “Time to get busy and quit whining” is what God has made clear to me. I told you that you might want to not read this.
Many of you know that I am teaching the bible study that I wrote called Broken: A Journey of Healing on Wednesday nights. On our first night together, I told my story in order for you to totally understand how I have been broken many times, but God has always restored me or is continually restoring me. He has and is doing a great work in me. So this blog includes several things: Donessa Carter’s video testimony and my story of physical healing.